i'm ALWAYS ME.

Its good to go to the beach sometimes.

2010-08-18T09:26:00.001-07:00

So Studying can actually get you money, i am 400 dollars richer now (((((:

2010-08-10T10:31:00.000-07:00

The 2 awards that i’ve received a month ago actually credited my account with 200 dollars each.

So it isn't only certificates the sponsors are sponsoring!

Thanks Cheers Holdings and Fraser Centrepoint! :D

Tumblr-ing.

2010-08-05T09:10:00.000-07:00

Haven't been Blogging much here cause i've been tumblr-ing at http://sourcandyribbons.tumblr.com/ recently.

Will still write here once in a while, when there is something to write.

I'm not smart, and i don't like being smart.

2010-08-05T09:02:00.000-07:00

but i’m not.

they think i’m on top of everything, but i’m not.
i’m slowly heading towards the back of the pack.. watching everyone rush past me, heading towards their future.

I really sick of being concerned with my results. Firstly, I don't even really care about further studying, why am i still disappointed in the slight fall? I guess there is no one that won't be upset if they were once at the top and they're falling down. I need to find my direction in life soon man, which i seriously have none right now.

Studies or dreams? Money or life? Status or satisfaction? What do i really want?

Don't say a thing.

2010-06-27T05:03:00.000-07:00

Well, maybe not disappear forever, just for a little while.

Just feel like running away, escaping from this harsh reality.

Movie Gossip Eat!

2010-06-22T10:06:00.000-07:00

Went for movie with Shuni and Yiling. ((:

Its damn niceee!

Wee~~

Laughing like nobody's business in the theatre.

♥ ♥

My Random Life.

2010-06-06T04:52:00.000-07:00

o.O

2010-06-01T05:42:00.001-07:00

IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.
IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.IHATEEXAMS.

ARGH. HATE IT WHEN I'M FORCING MYSELF TO STUDY.
LET THIS 3 DAYS TO BE OVER SOON.

The only people that could hurt you, are the ones you love, because if it wasn’t love you just wouldn’t care.

2010-05-30T09:15:00.001-07:00

And i was hurt.
Maybe after sometime, things will change.

We don't need anyone else, we want them.

2010-05-26T07:20:00.000-07:00

Just Expressions.

2010-05-25T05:11:00.000-07:00

Recital is over.
Everyone worked hard for the 4 minutes on stage.
From the dance routine to the costumes, we did everything together.
Thanks everyone for the wonderful experience. (:
And I miss you people, alot.
ALOT ALOT ):

Back to the past.

2010-05-25T05:02:00.000-07:00

Randomly got to browse through my friendster account once again.
And it actually still exists.
Looking through the old pictures, found out that i really did changed alot, mentally and physically.
I will be great if i could live as a 17 year old kid again, for one day. ((:
Miss the memories with everyone in my life then.

I'm not saying that life is not great now though, Its different.
But i love my life now :D

Thanks everyone (:

2010-05-15T22:29:00.000-07:00

Sorry for breaking down.
Was just frustrated by myself.
I'm happy that there are people who cares. :D
I love you all~~~

The sun is orange.

2010-05-12T18:43:00.000-07:00

Time is running out.

Projects to submit, steps to master well.

I'm so used to sleeping late and waking up early now.

Things have been happening in school lately.

Some are frustrating, some are just pathetic-ly sad.

But anyways, I'm not really affected by stuff like these.

I'm delighted to stay at home sometimes doing nothing, just staring blank would be a pleasure.

Sick of having no decision-making ability in school.

Wore my yellow watch to school today and adjusted the time to TP's clock.

Jems on my pencil case are not as bright as before.

I don't like the new printer in school.

Smashed my index and middle finger between the toilet cubicle door, and it hurts.

Sometimes i really just need a hug.

The sun is orange this morning.

Wore specs to school today.

I feel fat, going on a diet.

I miss mummy and daddy.

I miss....

This is a post filled with random thoughts and stuffs around me now.

I hate feeling random.

We've to learn to be contented at times.

2010-05-08T13:21:00.000-07:00

credits: iforgotwhichblog:/

nod my head.

2010-05-07T12:22:00.001-07:00

You seemed happier when i'm not around.

Fill my life.

2010-05-06T11:03:00.000-07:00

I'm busy with dance practice and school these days.
Its quite tiring at times, esp. when i'm in school.
Dance practices at nights have tiring me out, of course not only me though.
Been struggling to keep awake and concentrate during classes in school, and staying in focus in dance practices. You can see me frequently staring in to space most of the time. Haha, and I look damn stupid doing that.
Although I'm a little busier than usual, but i'm happy with a life like this. (:
At least I'm doing everything with a purpose in mind.
Studying hard to prevent my results from falling,
and dancing hard to do well in the recital. (:

I have to apologise to my beloved friends for neglecting them and sulking my
face all the time due to being tired ):I still love you all! muackssss!!

p.s: cui photo, the result of no makeup+lack of sleep on the first day of the japan trip. Most probably how i look now while typing this.

For that moment.

2010-05-04T09:07:00.000-07:00

I wanted some comfort.

btw, nice shoes~

I need you now.

2010-05-02T10:09:00.001-07:00

It hurts when you're left with no choice but people interpreted it as you're just giving excuses.
Few moments where i felt like crying these 2 days.
Fuck, hate it when i'm so weak.

Trust is required in every relationship. (:

2010-04-30T10:39:00.000-07:00

You just stabbed in to the already existing wound.

2010-04-29T09:22:00.000-07:00

Just being retarded.

Yilingfoo with her sandwich with only 1 tomato slice!

Cartoons are the only things that still remains happy to me.

I love cartoons, generally all cartoons.

I love watching cartoons.

To me, they worth alot.

Surrounding myself with things that make me smile. (:

Staying true to myself.

2010-04-28T17:51:00.000-07:00

Its the start of another day in school and i'm all alone the class waiting for class to start.
Coming to school alone is part of my semester's routine activity, and it isn't that bad too.
Being alone allows me to sulk my face and think of all sorts of things in my mind.
I don't really have to smile or make any expressions when I'm alone.
I think most strangers who don't know me would think that i have some attitude problem, and it doesn't really matters. This is me and i like being myself.

Some people will know me as the cheerful and bubbly shimin that doesn't really show her inner emotions too much. Or you can say rarely does that. And some people know me as the shimin that always get into emotional periods and mood swings, i seriously meant always . Its obvious that i have split personalities. And thats me. (:

An immediate example is i'm in high spirit now while i'm typing this post. I'm such an ironic person. XD

If i can wear a mask everyday, i would have a reason not to smile.
Btw, i think i'm so chio wearing a mask, cause my features are all covered. XD

I MISS YOU PEOPLE.

2010-04-27T22:55:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow's wednesday, a day where i only have one lesson which is a 5pm-6pm lecture. A waste of time to school, i know. But this isn't that bad as i have more sleep time which is what i really need currently at this moment.

Pimples are appearing on my back, frequently headaches, cramps, stiffness in the neck are the results of lack of rest.

Schools alright till now. The new class is .. well an interesting mix of people. But i still prefer the year 1 class though. Real faces of people slowly unreveals as time goes by, its obvious. Kind of saddening that time passes so fast, in a blink of an eye, i'm already year 3 and 19 yearold this year.
The workload came fast this semester, we already started on our projects.
I miss schooling with shunitesh, yilingfoo, charlotteng and cheryllim. All of them together. ):

Started rehearsals for the DOU recital.
The 1st rehearsals last week was tedious. I frequently blank out in the midst of the routine, i don't know why. Guess i'm not focused enough. Music is fast and steps isn't clean. Got to work hard on that. Feeling that kind of motivation which have been missing for sometime.

Time isn't enough but we've have to make the best out of it.
Perfection isn't possible but we'll still got to work for it.
Love isn't there and we'll wait for it.

Its finally friday!

2010-04-23T08:30:00.000-07:00

The first week of school issss.... tiringgggggggg.
I TOTALLY FEEL LIKE SLEEPING IN THE LECTURES! hahahhah.
But it feels nice to catchup with friends!!!

I love my pink backpack from japan~~

Pictures taken from shunitesh BB! NICE~

Friday is the real start of the week.

By Shunitesh

Do not do to others if you don't want people to do it to you.

2010-04-20T09:50:00.000-07:00

Have a taste of your own medicine.

Nerds need love too.

2010-04-19T04:36:00.000-07:00

First day of my year 3 sucks.
Feeling freaking tired and giddy all day.
Stars came in to my sight during calculus lecture.
Feeling bloated yet hungry since the last lecture of the day.
More burden added to the monetary issues due to the expensive textbooks i've to buy.
A possibility of damaging people's stuffs.
Nothing's going the right way today.

Let me 8 fast forward to weekends
Lend me an O ear and listen to me whine.

what i want to do.

2010-04-17T09:42:00.000-07:00

SMILEY :D

2010-04-16T12:51:00.000-07:00

finally understood.

2010-04-14T07:12:00.000-07:00

the real meaning of literally getting lost in someone's eyes.

I'm back!!

2010-04-13T07:42:00.001-07:00

Back from japan! (:
Love the weather, food, scenery and shopping streets there!
going overseas is soo niceee~~~

escaping to the land of strangers tomorrow.

2010-04-03T05:33:00.000-07:00

Today was a bad day.
Was initially very emotional and something happened to add on to that.
Took a random 1 hour stroll in plaza sing alone after all that drama.
my mind was filled with negative thoughts about everything and anything.
sometimes i would rather be a loner, like seriously.
i'm a total loser at friendships, just a fucking loser.
i'm not caring and sensitive enough, i'm sorry and i hate myself for that.
Maybe i just don't deserve to have friends.
feeling so fucking depressed now............
running away from all these dramas and to a place of strangers tomorrow.
i hope everything will be fine when i return to this island.
Japan here i come.

i know i'm in the wrong again.

2010-04-02T08:35:00.000-07:00

my little gesture of showing some love sincerly has been taken as a bitchy move just to show people that i am a good person.
that great and i sacrificed some cash and lunch for that.
i know my heart will end up in the trash, supposedly not by you as you've said.
i thought everything was going to be better until i read that particular note you've wrote.

Guess what.

2010-03-18T06:14:00.000-07:00

i've gotten so used to everything that i don't even bother to whine anymore.
i think everybody is so sick of listening to me whining the same thing over and over again.
i'm so disappointed, and no one whom i wish to stands on my side.
stop giving excuses, i'm so sick of them.

have you ever experienced being so lost and abandoned at a moment? I did.
how can i every trust anyone when i can't trust the ones that is the closest to me?

FOOD.

2010-03-18T03:56:00.000-07:00

I like having my dinner for breakfast and my breakfast for dinner, which is what i did today.
My staple breakfast meal is usually a sunny-side up and 2 pieces of bread, I LOVE DIPPING THE BREAD INTO THE YOLK. yumsyums.
Sometimes i'll have sushi leftovers or hargaus for a breakfast treat, my favourites. :D
When i'm feeling heathly, oatmeal will be the best choice.

And for dinner or lunch, anything will be appropriate. Chinese food, Japanese food, Korean food, Fast food...... Yeaps anything (:
Most importantly, i need carbohydrates, proteins and fibres in my meals!
I like eating carboss, esp. rice, which kind of explains my increasing weight. There was a period where I eliminated carbos in my diet, i think 3 years ago. My lost weight (which is the purpose), but didn't feel as happy when i was taking my meals. RICE IS LOVES OKAY.
And i love MEATTTT! haha. Alot of people know that, and my favourite will be pork. Steamboat with lots of pork is heaven. And lastly, i like veggies too! I like the crunchy and juicy taste when you bite into fresh veggies. Nice!

So today, i ate a full dinner meal for breakfast, which includes rice, an egg, pork and chicken. Sadly, there isn't any veggies. And i ate 8 hargaus for dinner.
I think this is nice change to my dieting habits. :D
Having a heavy breakfast is so SHIOK. I'm thinking of eating rice again for breakfast tmr!

Just blabbering about my food preferences. You can totally ignore me. (:

Something.

2010-03-15T06:55:00.000-07:00

This is what you get staying up emoing to the late nights.....
Okay, its just tons of black eyeshadow i've dumped on my lower lids.
I like how it makes me lifeless and emo, which is totally me to some of my peers.
And not to mention, fairer skin too.

Been staying at home quite alot this holidays.
Well, there are pros and cons for this.
The pros are: i get to save some money and do some housework (notreally).
But the cons are: possibilities of gaining weight are higher, and i've so much reserved energy that i end up using them for emoing and thinking about some lame shit stuffs that totally destroys my mood for almost anything.
Maybe i should find something that i can channel all my energy to.
I know the answer to my question will be excercise.
Its difficult regain the motivation i have for running 2 years back, but i'm working on it.

giving myself a pat on my back.

2010-03-12T09:38:00.000-08:00

i think i did fairly well in my exams.
results was satisfying (:

):

2010-03-12T08:09:00.000-08:00

trust is always put at mouth but its not taken into actions.
i never ever complained about others having an interesting life when mine's a boring one.
never did i say a word about others' wide social circle and time spent.
this is the only one time where my life is improving a little in terms of having fun.
and i was not understood and even misinterpreted as not a good mate.
i was naturally born to be unselfish and not fucked up.
i grew up thinking that i am always in the wrong even alot of times i'm really not.
i grew up apologising to everyone whenever there is an issue that involves me.
i can't be a fucked up person and don't care about anything else and leave the issue alone.
i just can't, i've tried and failed.
maybe i am loser and failure in terms of friendship.
maybe i'll try keeping my heart to myself and start faking good friends with everyone.
it always doesn't seems to pay off when put in effort and heart to something and someone.

Its so nice to be happy!

2010-03-09T06:59:00.000-08:00

My nails totally match with my new leggings.

Yeaps yeaps, I'm very excited for the Japan trip which is coming in like..... 3 weeks?!

I'm already thinking of what to wear, what to buy and what to eat !!!!

muahahahha. PRAY THAT IT WOULDN'T BE CANCELLED AGAIN. (i'm praying now)

Briefing is on next wednesday, so since there is a briefing i supposed it is confirmed already?

Yeaps, i'll continue to think this way!

Had supper with dance mates yesterday night and it was great!

Have not eaten prata since i forgot when, and prata is really nice (esp. the egg one).

Thanks to jeremy (birthday boy!) who drove me to and back, its nice to have a fellow neighbour who drives! Haha. Not mentioning the ultra fast speed and getting lost! XD

Was reminded by edwin, its amazing that how shuni and I get to know edwin and jeremy in natasha studio's locking course a year back, and then they introduced us to justis at DOU and we're one of the big family now! :D

happy happy happy!

Prepared dinner for my family again and this time its my signature dish, spaghetti!

I tried to create the same taste as the one in TP bizpark, and i kind of failed at imitating the taste. But the spaghetti is nice if you don't compare! (: yumyums~

Going to try cooking some chinese-style dishes with rice tomorrow!! :D

Went for jogging with mama papa and didi in the evening.

Got to shed off some ugly fats!

Banana Frenzy.

2010-03-08T04:33:00.000-08:00

Had a banana before heading to the chalet on friday.
Enjoyed a banana split on the second day of chalet.
And bought banana flavoured icecream with fudge chunks and walnuts on sunday.

I'm back!

2010-03-07T06:34:00.000-08:00

Yeaps, i'm back from the chalet. Its earlier than planned because of my lack of sleep. Haha.
Heres some pictures (:

And lastly, what do you get from not sleeping for 2 days?
Deep double eyelid fold, i love it (:

tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock.

2010-03-05T03:32:00.000-08:00

freaking funnny!

2010-03-05T01:57:00.001-08:00

Its very similar to the real new moon trailer!

i want a cute kitty too!

2010-03-05T01:42:00.000-08:00

I want to have a pet kitty too after watching this. SO CUTE CAN!

Off to chalet!!! (:

i've got a freaking long wish list man.

2010-03-03T07:27:00.000-08:00

Cute box! Guess whats inside?
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.
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These are freaking cute lipglosses! They have cute names too!
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.
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The colours are really cute too!
Too bad its not available in singapore ):

Pictures are from http://lotuspalace.blogspot.com/

My wish list item.

2010-03-02T23:18:00.000-08:00

dope shit! :D

Spring look.

2010-03-02T22:42:00.000-08:00

Requested from Kahjen, here's the tutorial for the look i posted below!

1. Apply yellow shadow up to the crease.
2. Apply blue shadow in the crease and outer-v.
3. Apple green shadow in the middle, this is to blend the yellow and blue better.
Blend shadows together to remove harsh edges. (blend the blue upwards)
4. Apply the same blue shadow at the outer lower edge of the eye.
5. Apply a champagne highlight shadow at the inner corner of the eye and at the browbone.
Lastly, line your eyes in your preferred way.

Hope this helps Kahjen! :D

holidays are great.

2010-03-02T06:04:00.000-08:00

Still getting used to my bangs. I personally think that I look like a 14 year old ah lian. HaHa.
Made a trip to a nearby mall to collect my contact lenses. Did some shopping at watsons (again). Haha. Bought new haircare set for my brittle hair. Hair is increasing dropping, especially after rebonding it. I think its quite damaged now, got to save it!

Sat down at mcd alone for my favourite ice milo (: I used to hate sitting alone at any cafe or food places. Used to think that its very scary to be alone and stared by some of the passerbys. But not now. Being alone allows me to think about alot of things. Issues like saving money, improving myself, family and friends. I kind of like being alone, but of course it will be much better if i have a device with internet access.

Experimented with my 120 eyeshadow palette again when i got home. Well, its the holidays now and i have nothing to do, except for tidying up my room. (ITS MESSY AGAIINNNN!)
This time, did an eye with blue, grenn and yellow shadow along with some eyeliner and faux lashes. (: Totallly blending into the spring season with the bright colours!

perfect combination of :

2010-03-02T05:45:00.000-08:00

and

SUPERB BREAKFAST. :D

Been dreaming alot these nights.

2010-03-01T19:51:00.000-08:00

The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between
asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and
fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the
dream is reality, and it really happened.
-Michelle Phan

New hair cut.

2010-03-01T05:15:00.000-08:00

My cute kuku bangs! :D Went to a neighbourhood hair salon as usual. Cheated the aunty's money by faking as a secondary school student, cause there is a student price. Haha.

But anyways, the hair cut was quite terrible. My bangs wasn't well cut initially, with some loose long hair flying in the middle of the short ones. :/ So maybe I'm not in the wrong to cheat her? Sort of. Haha. I then went back home and trimmed it myself. And it became perfect, sort of. Ohya, my bangs is freaking STRAIGHT and THICK. :D

Everyone should go for a hair cut. Getting rid of all spilt ends is so shiok! Hair feels healthier too!

Anatomy of a smoky eye.

2010-02-28T18:34:00.000-08:00

1. Apply dark brown shadow in an oval shape.

2. Apply black shadow within the areas of your double eye lids fold/ around half of oval shape.

Blend shadows to remove all harsh edges.

3. Line eyes in your preferred way.

Something that i still don't understand till now.

2010-02-28T06:09:00.000-08:00

Peace, I need that for all my relationships between friends.
I can't understand, why can't we just be friends? hmmm.
This is not the first time that this is happening, my choice to stay within the circle of friendship usually cause me to lose a friend. Ironic isn't it?
Definitely, I know I'm not wrong to make the preferred choices for my life.
But another part of me is concluding to the solution of apologising just to keep the treasured friendship. Consulted my dear yimei and came to my senses that apologising isn't the way to solve/end this problem. I guess I need time to cope with the loss of a friend once again.

Apologising makes the person feels superior and nothing else.
He's angry and thats his problem.
- Yimei

Thanks alot ah mei! (:

1st attempt at smoky eyes.

2010-02-27T23:24:00.000-08:00

Experimented smoky eyes (sort of) with my 120 eyeshadow palette. Totally loved it, but i don't think i have the courage going out with such a wild makeup on. It'll will look weird with my not-yet-mature dressing. :/

I used brown, black and white eyeshadow, applied with my new brush from momominerals, along with some eyeliner. My eye colour is actually dark brown instead of true black under the flashlights! :D

Love this.

2010-02-27T20:12:00.000-08:00

We all need haters. So don't be pissed off when someones hates you, especially when you did nothing.

memories that we all cherish.

2010-02-27T07:53:00.000-08:00

I'm seriously not drunk. I get red like a lobster even with just a sip of alcohol. Haha.
But anyways, the gathering was great! Ate loads of things and talked about many issues that is happening now and has happened in the past. I like the warm feeling in my chest area when memories of the past is being brought up. (:
Hope there will be lots more meetups during this holidays!

I like my eyes that day.

I started that day with quite a bad flu. My head hurts, nose is blocked and also down with running nose. And adding up to the worst, my contact lenses are giving me serious problems to the extent that my eyes went bloody red. Like seriously BLOOD RED. It was freaking scary. Cindy witnessed everything.

But this (above), saved my day from continuing to be bad. It is a sweet drink in neon yellow colour (like serious!), and its nice! I was alive and kicking within an hour's time and still went makeup shopping at Watsons. I bought my favourite ZA 2-way foundation! :D

I'm not a freaking male.

2010-02-26T23:06:00.001-08:00

My email address got spreaded on the WWW refering that i'm a male looking for a female.
wtf. Don't ask me how did it get there, I DON'T KNOW.
No wonder i recieved quite a number of unknown msn request these few weeks.
I've no idea who is the bastard/bitch that put that up but then i'm sure he/she will get his/her retribution some day in some way.
Fucking childish.

Fantasy lover.

2010-02-25T07:35:00.000-08:00

This new song sounded real weird when i first heard it, but it's quite nice after several listens. Its for the "Alice in wonderland" movie! Super looking forward to the movie too! going to watch it in 3D!!!! i'm a sucker for fantasy stories. XD

Love the the video, her makeup, hair and face. She's my favourite english singer! Totally love her style.

I'm so bored that i posted 3 entries today. But i'm stepping out of the house tomorrow though. Meeting buddies from secondary school and alcohol is on the list of the agenda. Going to be red once again! Long time since we've met, misses!

yes, lets start being bitches.

2010-02-25T05:53:00.000-08:00

Lets cut to the chase. I have the reputation of being a bitch and I
wouldn't change that for the world. I would rather live life as a bitch who is
real than someone who is fake but comes across sweet. People like to run there
mouths, thats what they do. More then 90% of the time if you stand up for
yourself and call them out, they will act like the victim. They are not secure
enough to stick to there previous words, thats why they do it in the first
place. I am here to tell you its ok to be a bitch. I don't care about what
people think about me, you shouldn't either. Having respect and standing up for
myself has ALWAYS been my number one priority. When you go to school tomorrow
and someone is making fun of or teasing you... you call them out on it. Don't
you dare think you have to sit around and take that from anyone. Don't play the
victim thats weak. I believe in you guys and If i could make it though my
teenage years standing up for myself... I know that your capable of it too. Get
real or get out.
-Audrey Kitching

its the holidays and i'm...

2010-02-25T05:28:00.000-08:00

like this at home.

did some housework and ate.

feel so freaking fat now):

i rather not say a word than speak and make no impact.

this applies to ... everyone. almost.

days in summary.

2010-02-24T08:08:00.000-08:00

i'm learning how to not say sorry that often.

2010-02-18T08:16:00.000-08:00

valentines day is forgotten due to cny.

2010-02-17T21:40:00.000-08:00

First day of CNY!

2010-02-14T07:56:00.000-08:00

Its been a while since i last put on fakelashies. (:
i love them!

bad outfit picture, but this is it.

i look so fatttttt. but i like the red nails!

random picturessss!

2010-02-13T09:58:00.000-08:00

my dad that claims to be muscular himself in the background.
and i really like my eyebags resulting from the lack of sleep.
like seriously lehhh!
eyebags make my eyes look rounder, i think!

love pinky cheeeksss!

CNY eve.

2010-02-13T00:45:00.001-08:00

i love reunion dinners, cny snacks and everything else!

something i really hate to do...

2010-02-13T00:42:00.000-08:00

is to wait for nails to dry after painting them.
painted my short cute nails chilli red!

i was...

2010-02-11T20:42:00.000-08:00

packed my room today and i found some cd-roms containing pictures from 2 years ago, the period after the olevels.
time passed so fast can ):

maybe i should:

go on a diet
cut my hair short
throw away my cosmetic lenses
laser away all my acne scars
opt for simple makeup

and i will look just the same like that again. (:
at least i look natural in the past, i look damn fake now lo. agree?

i was a skinny runner with defined leg muscles.
okay, i think my back view looked like a man. o.O

fyi, i'm wearing black.

She is strong but contains a quiet sorrow in her eyes.

2010-02-11T02:18:00.000-08:00

Again.

2010-02-11T01:19:00.000-08:00

the second time being the target for bitching.
well, its kind of sad, like sad + sad.
i thought tht period during sec2 is the last time.
but... can anyone tell me what i've did to derserve this?
i've treated people with my true self, always.
i don't like to hide myself, although sometimes it is necessary to put up a fake front.
but i find it tiring to do that all the time.
some of the rare times, i don't think much before commenting, hence offending people.
in such cases, i hope victims of my words will tell me so that i can return an apology in some way.

only people who understands me will not talk negatively about me.
those who know who am i.
i can't help to be a little depressed about this, pardon me for blabbering here.

ohya, to the two who feel superior now, sometimes its inappropriate to ask or laugh at me when i'm feeling low. Did i ever did that to you? think about it.

randomness again.

2010-02-10T06:52:00.000-08:00

kahjen mentioned that my blog entries are always so short.

haha. i said: some things are too personal to be mentioned here.

i think alot, but usually convert these thoughts into words that will be expressed verbally to those who are appropriate, which in most cases, my mum.

just being super random.

2010-02-09T07:01:00.000-08:00

just a random picture. hah. i got little tummmmmmmmyyyyyyy ):

picnick.com died on me, so i can't edit pictures for now.

i like the pants !

anyways, today marks the day of freedom from assignments! :D

happiest day of year 2.2!

if i am what you said,

2010-02-08T07:53:00.001-08:00

then you are what they say.
don't understand? think. (:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2010-02-08T07:38:00.000-08:00

so many people adding me in msn, compared to what i normally recieve.
i don't think i know them, and i somehow guessed that something bad is going on somewhere.

all i can say is that please settle things like a gender of what you were born to be.
don't gossip, backstab and create stories that aren't even true.
even if my assumptions are incorrect, please clarify.
anyways...
WHAT DID I DO TO OFFEND YOU?
WHY ONLY ME?
LIKE WTH SERIOUSLY, i didn't even do a thing.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

2010-02-07T06:07:00.000-08:00

how i wish my skin is this fair and my lips are this pink all the time!

anyways....

i'm getting sick of school and exams. ):

i don't want to grow up.

my first successful aglio olio! :D

2010-02-05T02:40:00.000-08:00

its so yummmyyy,

i'm craving for more!

i love soupspoon!

2010-02-05T02:38:00.000-08:00

look who's talking now.

2010-02-02T06:15:00.000-08:00

my heart is slowly becoming plastic to everyone.
being fake is just part of life isn't it?

anyways,
I FREAKING WANT THIS BYTHE DOLL!

Please think back and return an apology to me.

2010-02-01T04:48:00.000-08:00

so mad with myself for getting agitated by this.
breathing in and out, clearing my mind, meditating and whatsoever.
you're not always better.
everyone has their own strengths and flaws.

i feel drunk all the time.

2010-01-30T08:21:00.000-08:00

just feel like lazing around, staring blank, and stop my brain from thinking.

its easy to decide on what to do, but its difficult when it comes to really doing it.

2010-01-29T10:46:00.000-08:00

emotions visit me when i'm all alone.
i don't need you, emotions.
GET LOST. ):

the smile is the best concealer.

2010-01-28T07:27:00.000-08:00

I'll close my eyes, wishing for a bullet to shoot through me, and making the thoughts disappear when i see.

2010-01-26T08:00:00.000-08:00

i can't concentrate when thoughts are this disrupting.
i doubt anyone will understand this.

too many things going through my mind, it distorted my thoughts.

2010-01-24T16:40:00.000-08:00

let me clear my thoughts.

Don't wait for the world to accept you.

2010-01-22T23:11:00.001-08:00

you're a superhero for yourself.

its rather amusing that i don't feel a thing.

2010-01-21T03:46:00.000-08:00

sadded.

2010-01-21T03:29:00.001-08:00

i broke my pink water bottle today !!!
and its less than a month old. ):

AGENDA:

CS2 RJ
CS2 roleplay
MB
VM
RP2 IJ
DANCE ON SAT!!!!

OMG.

2010-01-21T02:58:00.000-08:00

<------makeup blogger: angmogirl tagged meeeeeee :DD

sometimes it takes 2 hands to clap.

2010-01-20T06:56:00.000-08:00

don't do to others if you don't want others to do on to you.
a conflict between you and yourself.

my lips are allergic to....

2010-01-19T06:20:00.000-08:00

this!
i was finishing my trusty vaseline lipbalm, so i had this brand new and unwrapped lipbalm stick in my drawer. i abandoned vaseline and went for this.
after 2 days of usage, my lips are swollen, puffy, red and itchyyyyy. ):
and this is 95% organic, vaseline isn't even organic.

i'm going back to my trusty vaseline, its cheaper somemore.

did i just tripped or have i fallen?

2010-01-18T06:55:00.000-08:00

stand back straight and walk again.

i do like my real pupil.

2010-01-17T23:02:00.000-08:00

behind every smile...

2010-01-17T08:26:00.000-08:00

there will be some stories to be told.

everyone is just waiting for the right person for some storytelling time.

i need more time, money and effort.

2010-01-16T10:01:00.001-08:00

there is a need to improve and be better. (:

love my new blusherrrrrrr.

2010-01-15T07:38:00.000-08:00

silly me.

2010-01-14T18:56:00.000-08:00

I don't want anything or anyone to affect my emotions.
Just realised that i do not make any impact on anyone's life, the good way or the bad.
So isn't it silly to let people leave an impact on my life?
(:

i totally wan this.

2010-01-14T05:20:00.000-08:00

where can i find it?! ):

we're just bored at 1st ave.

2010-01-14T05:14:00.000-08:00

i love the white shades!

the 5 things about me that i'm happy with...

2010-01-12T08:11:00.000-08:00

i have a very nice right eye
my lips are nice
my natural nails are pretty
i have a small bone structure
my natural lashes are quite long

a way to boost up self-confidence and love yourself is to say 5 things positive about yourself everyday. (:

what have i been doing.

2010-01-11T09:19:00.000-08:00

its been a busy busy week for almost all rmt year 2 students i suppose.
there are alot of deadlines to meet, esp. on this friday.
what have i been doing these days:

rushing the projects/assignments
resumed dance lessons <3
eating alot, almost like a monster
trying to be happy 24/7
sleeping late):

and i found out that one of my classmates was in the same student-care centre in primary school! funny thing is that, i totally can't remember a thing about primary school. -_-
but its really cool!

stressed.

2010-01-06T07:06:00.000-08:00

what do you do when you:

have an lousy internet connection
you have some important things to send
the responsibility is on you only
no one is freaking replying your sms for help/advice
only one in the house that is freaking worried and stressed and the other 2 is playing fb/watching show with some freaking irritating music

trust me, you'll go mad.
unless you can totally hackcare abt your project grades.

fortunately, the internet went back at 11pm.

i started sending the stuffs.
i've a long day tmr,
and i initially decided to sleep early today.

screwed up plans.